Tess had been away at college. Her parents started attending glory of God baptist church. She did not have a chance to attend herself. She had heard plenty of stories about the church and the pastor. She knew that her parents realy liked the church. She was looking froward to visiting the church and seing it for herself.
She was excited to check it out. She went to the church with her parents and siblings. She saw the pastor. He introduced himself. He called her tessi. Only her family used that name. Her parents often called her that. He would not know any difference. She did not mind.
“I am glad your hear. I hope you like our church. We have a really good church. We have a realy great core group. There are really nice people.” he said.
“I looked froward to getting to know people. ” she said. He could not talk to her long but she seemed realy nice. He had to move away and start the service.
He had never considered dating again sense his wife died. As time went on academically he was open to it. It was only on a philosophical bases. He was interested in her. She seemed kind and seemed to be person of a good reputation. He did wounder if her and him might be a posibility.
Then he remembered his condition. He peed himself while he talked to her. His diaper was quite soiled when he talked to her. That was a stark reminder to him. It was a message to him that he was not a sutible candidate to be marred and especially not someone like her.
He did not talk to her the rest of the day. He did say hi to her on her way out. He shock his hand. His skin felt clamy. He could not wait to have his diaper changed. He was used to this. This was a normal procedure.
After everyone left the church he got baily and macci and headed to the parsonage. He went to the bathroom. He took off his soiled diaper and tossed it in the trash. He wiped himself and put on a fresh diaper. He felt a lot better.
For a split second, he had actualy thought about pursuing tess. Then he remembered his ‘condition’ . He knew that it would probably never be a real posibility. It made him sad.
That night he said hello to her but did not engage in too much of a conversation. He decided to back off from her. He decided to keep it professional. Besides even if he were not incontinent he was older then her.she probably had a lot of canidates to be suters if not a curent boyfriend.
After a few Sundays they did not talk to eachother except in smal talk. People started to get used to seing her. She slowly started to become part of the church.
One sunday she was working in the nursery. He went down to get his kid. Baily was in a children’s church and macci was in the nursery. Tess did not know that he had kids or that macci was his kid. Tess had seen her around. They developed an instant report.
He went to the nursery. He had already got bailly. “Hi ! Tessi. How was the muchkin?” he asked. Macci huged her dady. He picked her up. “She was great. These are your kids?” Tess asked. “Yes. ” he said.
“My parents said you were widowed. It cant be easy being a single parent? “She remarked. “Its not but i muddle though. My sister lives locally and has been a huge asset. I have a realy good support system. The church has been great. We are making it. ” he told her.
“I can see that. It seems like you are doing a good job. ” Tess said. “I realy hope so. ” he said. He realized he needed to go upstairs. He thanked her for watching them. He went upstairs.
It seemed that they had a moment. If course he remembered his condition. He felt degraded and humiliated. A part of him wished that she did not attend his church. It was paunfull to see her knowing that they could never be togerher. He tried to put that passed him. He avoided her that night.
She noticed that he was a bit aloof. She figured that he kept a detachment because he was a single man and because he was the pastor. She found it a bit unusual but decided not to put too much stock in it.
Then the church diner arived. He dreaded church diners. If he had his way he would never hold them. That was in the pervue of the hospitality committee. It was not biblical to not have church diners. The only ground to band them would be if there was strife and contention conected to the diners but that was not the case. Pastor being incontinent was not a good excuse to not have them.
If course he was expected to attend. His kids were defiantly expected to be there. The church loved him and his family. They were stars at the church.
His sister got the kids so that he could get changed. He did not publicize that he wore diapers but he did not hide it either. He tried to keep it on the downlow as much as he could. He could not keep it too quet. He changed himself then was reunited with the girls.
He sat down at a table. He helped the girls with there food. Tess and her family came to his table. He was realy hoping that she would sit somewhere else. Of course they sat at his table. Tess sat across from him.
She made faces at the girls. They laughed at her. The girls were well behaved but they had a silly side. It was a controlled silyness. Tess realy liked his kids. She was developing an affection for them.
“So how do you like our town?”he asked tess. ” i like it so far. I am starting to get my bearings. The last mounth at college waa grueling. ” she told him. “Yes.i remember those days well. I always loved finishing that last exam. It was like a huge weight was lifted. ” he told her. “Yes. I know exactly what you meen. I love that feeling. ” she added.
“So are you getting good grades?” he asked. “Yes i did. I have a g.p.a. ” he answered. “That is great. I did not have a 4.0 gpa. I passed. I did not get anything lower then b. ” he told her. “Oh good. ” she said.
“I was never a great student. I had to work at it. At colege i felt that i was called to ministry. This was an important road to this. I kept that in mind. I wanted to work hard. I tried to do it for the lord. That helped.” he said.
“What is your major?” he assked. “I want to be an English teacher. Being the daughter of a math teacher and a librarian. You dont have a lot of options. ” she said.
“She basicaly was bound to be a teacher of some kind.” her dad said. “I do love math. I love words. I love litatature as well. English won out. “Tess said. “I did not push English on her. Had she chosen math, i would have been pleased with that. I was thrilled that she chose English. ” kathy, her mom said. “I did not mind. English was always a passion of hers. ” her dad said.
“Did you always want to be a pastor?” tess asked him. “No. My original major was in business. I wanted to go in business. My parents said i had to go to a christian colege. Fundamental bible university offered seculer majors. Half way though my freshman year i started getting involved in ministry though the college. I led bible studies. The deen of men approached me and said i should consider switching to pastoral tract. I prayed about it. I decided to switch to pastoral. Everyone was shocked. I have never regreted it. That summer i interned under my pastor. He put me to work. By the end of the sumer i was certan that this was the lords will. So was my pastor. I never regreted that decision. I think that by goung as a business major, i was able to come to that conclusion on my own. My heart changed in the process ” he said
There eyes met as he was talking. He quickly moved his eyes sonewhere else. “I am glad you chose to be a pastor. I think you made the right decison. ” she said.
“I am very carefull when i advise young man. God does want some nen to go into busines. He did not want me to go into busssiness. ” he said.
“He does want some to go into ministry. I am certain you are where the lord wants you. ” she said. ” yes am too. ” he said.
For a while it was a group meeting. Then it became almost an exclusive conversation between those two. They just kept talking.
Then he realized he had pooped his pants. He was so embarrassed. His sister and her husbend watched his kids. He dismissed himself and went into the bathroom.
He laid down in a stal and he pulled off his diaper. It was dishusting. He cleaned himself. He put on a fresh fiaper. Tessi did not seem to know that anything was arry.
He did not talk to her much after that. The iincontinence made him discouraged. He said little to her that night. She was suprised. She had no idea why.
He could not see her. Not after this. He decided not to persue her. Not after his acidence. He could not take that risk. He would not. It was just not in him.
Dale takes the girl out for cofee and runs into it turns out that tessi is working there.